So, I figured I'd look up my old blog, see what was on here. I wish I could say my life is so much better and easier now, but that's not the case.
Rebecca died on November 9th 2016. I was right beside her when she left. I was with her for the last 2 weeks of her life. It was hard and horrible and unfair and shitty.
I basically have no relationship with my mother. She was mean to me just two days after Rebecca died, called me names, ran out of the house like she does. I have no intention of getting close to her ever again; I don't want to give her the power to hurt me.
I saw James for about 45 minutes when Rebecca died. He got there at midnight, and she died 2 minutes later. He hung around for just a little while. I doubt I'll ever see him again.
The last time I blogged, my dad was still alive. He's been dead over three years now. I was right there with him, too, when he died.
My health is terrible. I've developed frequent episodes of bad to very severe nausea, often with diarrhea. I lost 35 lbs. No one really knows what the cause is, and I'm on some meds, but the episodes still happen. I have a PICC line in and can give myself fluids at home when I can't drink enough. My anxiety has returned, and sometimes is okay, other times is very bad. I've been suicidal off and on since at least January.
Doug, Quiera and Cora are now living with us. Doug, Quiera and I all lost our jobs just before Christmas, and though Doug now has a job again, they needed some time without having to pay rent so they could get on their feet again.
Last time I blogged Quiera hadn't even met Doug, I don't think. Now they are married (as of May 1st 2016). And I'm a grandma to Cora Genevieve, who was born on March 25th 2015. She is very smart, stubborn and affectionate. Just like her mom. She talks almost nonstop, and I can understand most, but not all, of what she says. Like Quiera and Tia she has some speech impediments.
I've started finding items for low or no cost that I get in exchange for a review. One of the reasons I decided to restart my blog is to have another forum for my reviews. I particularly like getting beauty products.
